Letter From Mom
here lately everything you send me is doubled, i get 2 of the exact same thing. the furnace is acting up again. first wouldn't work, i called the house warranty at 4:50 PM and then again about 5pm when the Collinsville heating air condition had Fridays message on the answering machine, the house warranty is trying to get another company to come out. new igniter put on 12/21 wont lite furnace, i fooled with thermostat, now comes on, wont go off. i am scared if i die due to furnace, please sue these people. bankof edwsardsville Mary white has access to all paper work, also real estate agent who knows mary.her name is Kathy.
no i doni know of ma & pa having any anniversary parties. i done know if they went out ever. i don't know if they had any interests. i done know if they had any hopes dreams or any thing else. i know all pa did was put in a crop, reap it, worry about paying the bank for the money he borrowed to buy seeds if the crop sold for enough to pay it. i didn't know when they were sick, sorrowful, grieving, hungry, tired, going thru change, in pain, or anything else. i didn't really know them or anything about them if you want to know the truth. i didn't know about anything except myself. i was the all important thing in my life. i did not care about any one else, or the effects of any of my actions. i only knew and cared about me. i knew there was something wrong with me when i was young. my mind became increasingly worse and i knew when i was a senior that something was very wrong. even then i could look back and see instances, but i didn't know what to do. in the following 10 years whatever was wrong with me climaxed. i still didn't know what to do. it is not as bad now. i have received treatment a few times, been hospitalized twice, and have been labeled as manic depression and/or antisocial. i am still not sure what is wrong with me, but something terrible is in my brain and have been since it surfaced age 10-11, that is my first real memory of it. i tried to talk to ma about it before, what was wrong with me and she always said nothing was wrong with me, she said i was just mean. but i always knew something was wrong. and, no, i haven't had a drop to drink. i always wondered if the morning sickness meds she took that almost caused her a miscarriage in my 6th month, caused some of my problems. i didn't know until about age 30 about some bone deformities in jaws and mouth that dentist almost fell over about & exclaimed that it was the most perfect example of whatever he called it that he ever saw. i also was born with no reserve in my eyes which they found out about when i was also about age 2. also this brain problem, i done know what caused it, but i know its wrong.
So in answer to your question re their anniversary, I guess they never celebrated. In later years, us girls tried to get them to go out to eat for anniversary or other occasions, but they wouldnt. I don't know why. I done care why, anymore. its over.
happy birthday tomorrow. i surely hope your card gets there. sorry this is a depressing letter, but its real man. love, mom
no i doni know of ma & pa having any anniversary parties. i done know if they went out ever. i don't know if they had any interests. i done know if they had any hopes dreams or any thing else. i know all pa did was put in a crop, reap it, worry about paying the bank for the money he borrowed to buy seeds if the crop sold for enough to pay it. i didn't know when they were sick, sorrowful, grieving, hungry, tired, going thru change, in pain, or anything else. i didn't really know them or anything about them if you want to know the truth. i didn't know about anything except myself. i was the all important thing in my life. i did not care about any one else, or the effects of any of my actions. i only knew and cared about me. i knew there was something wrong with me when i was young. my mind became increasingly worse and i knew when i was a senior that something was very wrong. even then i could look back and see instances, but i didn't know what to do. in the following 10 years whatever was wrong with me climaxed. i still didn't know what to do. it is not as bad now. i have received treatment a few times, been hospitalized twice, and have been labeled as manic depression and/or antisocial. i am still not sure what is wrong with me, but something terrible is in my brain and have been since it surfaced age 10-11, that is my first real memory of it. i tried to talk to ma about it before, what was wrong with me and she always said nothing was wrong with me, she said i was just mean. but i always knew something was wrong. and, no, i haven't had a drop to drink. i always wondered if the morning sickness meds she took that almost caused her a miscarriage in my 6th month, caused some of my problems. i didn't know until about age 30 about some bone deformities in jaws and mouth that dentist almost fell over about & exclaimed that it was the most perfect example of whatever he called it that he ever saw. i also was born with no reserve in my eyes which they found out about when i was also about age 2. also this brain problem, i done know what caused it, but i know its wrong.
So in answer to your question re their anniversary, I guess they never celebrated. In later years, us girls tried to get them to go out to eat for anniversary or other occasions, but they wouldnt. I don't know why. I done care why, anymore. its over.
happy birthday tomorrow. i surely hope your card gets there. sorry this is a depressing letter, but its real man. love, mom
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